Our new home has one luxury item that I am quite fond of--the jet propelled soaking tub. I love to retire to the bathroom at night and draw a nice bubble bath to ease my often-aching back.
Of course, there are many other new things around here. For the first time in our marriage, we have something other than second-hand furniture and GoodWill items for decoration. We're actually starting to put together a nice home (just in time for Gabe to come along and destroy it of course). While this is nice, it is also almost unsettling.
As a student, I didn't have two nickels to rub together for furnishings. I've always prided myself in taking a second hand item and making it look shabby chic rather than what it was realistically as shabby sh*t. I no longer have to do that. It is almost as if I am waiting for the other shoe to fall.
The new house and new stuff doesn't take away my anxiety of this past week. It was at this time in the pregnancy with the triplets that everything went to hell and quickly. It is a nagging fear that comes back over me bringing with it the grief and fear that we will lose Gabe somehow. As I move beyond 23 weeks, this is all uncharted territory and I savor the preciousness of moving closer to the line of 24 weeks (when the doctors actually consider Gabe to be 'viable'). I excitedly pray to go much beyond 24 weeks and for Gabe to come out healthy and happy. It is a scary, precious hope.
Maybe it is all the new stuff that makes like seem a little unbelievable right now. I don't have to go to work; I have a new car that rides like a plush Grandma car, and I don't have anything in particular to stress over. It all just seems unreal.
I pray that the goodness sinks in and we adjust to southern living. Folks here are so nice (sales associates seem eager to actually help you and grocery stores are clean and pleasant) and no one is in a all-fire hurry. My BP has responded nicely to this reality.
Meanwhile, I am praying for my blogging world friend Day http://abeautifulday.blogs.com/ and her precious son Simon. She has inspired me along this journey and I pray for her speedy recovery and Simon's growth and health in the NICU. Join me in sending positive vibes their way...
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