First baby...

So, here is my biggest baby as she reminds me that she will always be first.
It's still a little surreal. It has been a year since losing the twins and now being pregnant again. I wish I could naively be joyous, but I am all to aware that this may not end like I want it to. But, for today, I will be happy and proceed as if...
I am very grateful to be here. However, I know the anguish of not having this sparkle of hope and the insidious jealously and anger it can stir. I can only hope that my news will not cause that for anyone here as I very much appreciate those who stop by and offer a word of encouragement.

Forgive me if I am still speechless...