Our first week together

The Pumpkin Patch revisited

I still find it amazing to realize that I have finally found that missing piece in my life. I found the career I wanted, was blessed to find my true love, and now I have the baby I have always dreamed of...life is good.

Our first week together has been magical but not without lots of work. So much of getting to know one another is trial and error. I've learned to distinguish a fussy cry from a I'm-in-pain cry. I've learned that Mylicon Gas Drops really are liquid gold. I've been humbled by hard breast feeding really is--something we are both still working out in the course of our days. It can be overwhelming at times.

I was talking to an old friend last night and recounting all of the preconceived ideas I had about our life with Gabe. I thought I had some idea of where he would sleep, what our routine would be, etc. Instead, I can hardly stand to have him far away from me (no bassinet sleeping just yet) and feel empowered when I can feed him or meet some basic need that he has. As my Mom said profoundly, "they cut the umbilical cord at birth but I'm here to tell you that it grows back." How right she is!

Recovery from the C-section is going well, I hope. I'll check in with Dr. Nerdy Professor next week. Of course, my big item for discussion will be the reoccurence probability of placenta accreta should we decide to have another child. It is certainly something of great importance to me.

But, for now, and even at the moment they pulled out Gabe, I am at peace. He is more than I ever dreamed he would be. I tear up when I look down at him and realize that he is my son; my world revolves around him in a delightful sort of way. I am so grateful that we have this time together to bond and discover each other. There is no other place I want to be.

So, our first week has been a good one. Aside from his bouts with gas, he is a content, snuggly baby. He likes nothing more than to park on my chest or his father's and take a long nap. And, I can think of nothing better than the feeling of his warm little body nestled safely next to me.

We shall see what adventures await us in this second week home together...